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wuuuut? It’s been over a week since I last posted? that’s just WRONG. I’m gonna keep this blog and update it regularly, you’ll see! paHA
hokay, so a lot of things have happened these past weeks, shitty and great things, but I don’t wanna talk about those for now….let’s talk about what I wanna do with my life, since I feel the need to express it online right here, right now.
When I was a wee child I wanted to be a model slash singer. I thought that’d be the coolest job ever in the world! And I kept telling that to people. Wow, now I know why they thought I was such a shallow person. But it’s true. Those jobs are probably the best in the world. All you need to do is be pretty and sing. That’s basically it. Oh but I kinda forgot that for being pretty you actually HAVE to be pretty and for singing you NEED a voice wtf for real. So when I realized that it’s gonna be impossible for me to be that I was sad. Yes wtf.
haha, ok, that’s actually the bullshit that I used to tell people….I actually wanted to be a luxury prostitute wtf. For real now. After reading this article in a magazine about this woman who instead of becoming a psychologist, became a prostitute for shear pleasure, I was inspired. I was very well aware of the hard road I had to take in order for me to become a LUXURY prostitute, like the high class ones that you hear about on the news that get their hands on wealthy handsome guys, but I was pretty much determined to do it. yup. that was my dream. And mind you, I was what? 6? And I want to add that that article was among the first few things that I was able to read after learning how to read.
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Now that I think about it, what was it like before learning how to read? How did I feel? Frustrated that I couldn’t read stuff on packages or subtitles, or even the newspaper? I wish I could remember how I learned to read. Did it take long? Was I good at it? Why am I thinking about it now? wtfbbq
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So anyway, as I was saying, I kind of grew up and in high school I wanted to be a doctor working in a busy hospital. Wao, that was dum of me to say. Hospitals are ALWAYS busy wtf. but the point is that I wanted to be a doctor so I wouldn’t have a personal life. It’s kinda hard to have one when you’re working several shifts in a row, and look inside people and realize how shitty their life must be. Oh well. I decided I shouldn’t become one due to the workload. Study all my life and not get paid for real until the age of 40? No thank you. After that I really wanted to work in a mental institution, cause I said “hey, that’s a hospital too and psychology is easier”. I have NO FUCKING IDEA why I thought that way.
But it’s all in the past now.
My next careers of choice were a writer, then an actress, then a hawt film director, then a fashion photographer, and now I just wanna be a singer/guitarist in a rock band in Japan. YES. That’s a great job, I know, congratulate me sonovabichies, cause I WILL be famous. If you’re good to me now I might remember you then. I can’t wait for it. Of course, for that I need a second more serious job that will pay my bills while I go to concerts and record songs in the studio.
So there you have it. Me and my wonderful ideas. Now I need to get back to work. Chem work to be more precise. Oh the love wtf.
HOLY MOTHER OF BURGERS
So many things happened these past days. Please make yourself comfy.
First off, there was a real fire alarm in Ham/MacG Wed night. WTF. I went to bed at 1 cause I wanted to study for my Japanese test on Th, and my lovely roomie was off with some random guy that I have not yet given my blessing to date her wtf. SO. I finally was able to fall asleep (in case you didn’t know, I’m a special insomniac) and the bloody alarm decides it’s time to bug the shit out of me. I tell you, if the alarm were a person, I’d beat seven shades of shit out of her (kudos to you if you know where that quote comes from). I swear to you, it felt like a war zone. the crazy “shit shit who the fuck is shooting us” was in my head and I didn’t really understand what was going on, didn’t see my roomie anywhere, thought it was the middle of the day (which was obviously wrong, but I didn’t give a crap about it), heard some noise on the hallway, realized that it was a fucking shitty night, grabbed shoes and a sweater and headed out the door to join the herd. IT WAS FUCKING ANNOYING WTF standing out there in the cold, not knowing wtf happened, then hearing that there’s smoke coming out of fucking Ham which I absofuckinlutely HATE, and then seeing people smoking a few feet away from me. wtf. I wanted one too. And the cause was epically pathetic. A steam leak on the 5th floor. wtf people. get a fucking life.
BUT wait. there’s more.
I didn’t wake up in time for ANY of my classes on Th. And my roomie (who came back around 8 ) thought I had no class and let me sleep. Fuck. I studied my ass for the fucking Japanese quiz, and I didn’t even take it. wtf. oh well, I contacted my senseis and told them a big fat lie and asked them if I could take the test the next day. which was totally fine with them. Hokay, so since that was settled (I didn’t really care for the other class, comp sci pshh lah wtf) I took a shower, got dressed and started my Japanese composition due the following day. At 4 my roomie calls me to tell me she wants me to bring her suitcase to the bridge so she can gtfo of here (she went to Florida the sucker) and I help her because I am THAT kind hearted. After 30 minutes, she sends me a text asking me if her debit card is in her pencil case. WTF?? I looked for it like a murderer looks for victims but couldn’t find it. THEN she texts me back saying j/k lah, have it. fucking shit man, don’t do that to me again. you phail at life.
there’s more on Th but the paragraph is too fucking long that I am starting a new one. SO, as I was saying, I was doing my composition on traveling. It gets close to dinner, I call a bunch of friends to ask if they wanna grab something to eat, but with no luck since they all sucked on Th. So I ended up eating alone, which is terrible, since I never eat alone. Except in the morning. You wouldn’t want me next to you in the morning. Oh well, I accept my sad fate and proceed back to my room to finish my composition. around 8.17 pm I get a text saying that they are rehearsing in Pratt. wtf? I checked ella and I wasn’t called. so I called them back and asked wtf is going on? It seems they forgot to change the schedule on ella, so I was expected at 10 pm to rehearse. Also, no one told me that by rehearsal they meant, SONG rehearsal. fuck. I ate an ice cream at dinner. perfect for my voice. oh well, can’t do anything about it. After that I come back to my room, finish my composition around 12, and then do my orgo hw. I stayed up until 3.a.m. Speaking of composition, my sensei said she wants us to write between 400 and 800 characters, which means a page, but NO!, I had to write not 1, not 2, BUT 3 PAGES! wtf I couldn’t stop writing. I was so into it. Hope she won’t mind reading a little more…
On Fri I woke up early to take my test and hand in my composition and went to orgo. Friday really isn’t so important since I spent it all in my room doing crap shit nothing. I listened to a lot of music and realized that I need more Shiina Ringo in my life. Honnou is stuck in my head because I can totally relate to it. Plus, I can sing it pretty well wtf
BUT
today, I went out with 3 wonderful ladies, to the outlet mall. of course, a lot of money was spent. but it’s all in the past now. I still need stuff, but I got some pretty nice clothes and a pair of sandals. I think I will go to Vegas Night after all, Vegas Night being this skanky party hosted by my college where girls can hook up with boys or with girls or guys with guys or threesomes or foursomes and some more. You get the idea. oh and there’s also poker somewhere. Anyway wtf. And for this lovely event of the year, one must dress accordingly. Need to think about it a little more.
Urgh, today was kinda awful. Last night I stayed up till 4 am because of my stupid comp sci project. Why is it that I can do the hardest things, and with the easiest things I’m like wtf? I also got my chemistry midterm back and it’s not as good as I expected it to be. oh well, shit happens, and all I need to do is change my studying habits.
But enough of this crappy day! I feel like I should write about my history with blogging. Since it’s lame, but interesting. that kind of feeling wtf
So, once upon a time there was this young girl with big dreams of becoming a writer. It wasn’t because it’s a most romantic job, but because she didn’t feel like she should actually work for a living. staying at home, writing whatever your imagination spits out sounded so tempting to the young girl. she even had a prototype! it was promising. she was full of promise. So, in order to polish her writing skills, she thought to herself, why don’t I keep a journal of my everyday life and thoughts, and maybe I will get more ideas to turn into stories! Mind you, this was back in 2003. the word blogging wasn’t as hip and cool as it’s now. anyway, moving on. What did the young girl do, you might ask? she went online, and she made an account on LJ, since that was the first thing that popped on google when she searched journal. it was cool. she started keeping a journal. until the next day. wtf happened? all was well, perfect, one might say! did she forget her password? nope. did she forget her username? wtf no. did she forget to turn on her brain? yes, that’s exactly what happened. The young girl completely forgot about the blog, oh pardon me, journal, since it wasn’t something she felt like doing. she didn’t have any blogging friends, so no one would read her entries. It was a sad day for the world.
a year after that unfortunate experience, the young girl came across XANGA and she thought the name was so cool that she joined. and started posting some. she did post more than one entry this time. it was like a love-hate relationship. she posted like, every 3 months or so. then she forgot her username AND password, and it stopped being funny.
the young girl soon decided to return to LJ, her first love, and create a new account. this happened when she was in her angry teenage years. she was mad at the world for everything. she wanted peace and understanding! she was hardcore! she hated pop music! she hated britney spears! and she loved cool numetal bands like Linkin Park and other stuff like Staind and Limp Bizkit! she was the real thing. but her angry entries didn’t reach to anyone, so, again, she hit the x on the top right and went back to her solitaire.
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I’ve always wondered how come solitaire is soooo relaxing. must be the brain telling you ‘nu-oh I can focus only on one thing at a time, gtfo if you wanna be mad AND play’ this kind of feeling….
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it was all good in young girl’s world until her friend mentioned blogspot. blogspot is the most malicious place ever. it eats you alive. the bad way. you get addicted and then all your blood gets sucked out and you’re like a tech zombie screaming for entries entries instead of brains brains. it’s ugly. don’t go there alone. make sure you have someone trustworthy to pull you out of this genjutsu. if you’ve read/watched naruto, you’d understand wtf
moving on, I heard wordpress was all the rage, like for realz this time. everybody had one. so this meant that young girl here, yours trully wanted one. I like how I switch between persons in my own narration. it kinda gives away my writing skills, ne? wtf so I was indecisive because I wanted to customize my own blog and everything, but I don’t really have a host so it’s kinda hard, so FREE is the way to do here! nothing more nothing less.
so there you have it. I’m sure you’re wtfing me right now, but I assure you it sounds awesome when you’re high. yes, yes it does.
I still have an hours before my meeting and I’m really really sleepy. and today I am going to make some prints!!!!! I can’t wait! it’s gonna be fab wtf.
where’s fall break wtf
I swear to god, computer science will be the death of me. I have a project due tomorrow, Wednesday, and I haven’t done even HALF of it. Honestly, I could sit for hours in the dark room, making my prints, or studying Japanese, or working in the chemistry lab, but I just can’t find the patience to deal with programming…It’s insane.
There’s this while statement that I still don’t know how to use and I’m not quite sure what it means, and I know I have to use it in the animation. Also, I have to build 2 parameters but I can’t really do that, since I made stuff so different, and complicated…WAI O WAI
So what does one do when in such a situation? SIMPLE! Put make up on of course! It was a great oppotunity for me to realize I’m not so good at it as I used to be. AND that I need a ton of stuff to buy…such a hard knock life I have…I’m broke and I can’t wait for this Friday when I get my paycheck!w00t!
oki now, I go back to hw. actually, I need to get ready for dinner! and then volleyball! it will be a long evening, but I hope it’s gonna be cool.
So I finally decide I should keep a blog. Like for real this time. It’s a long story, my relationship with blogs. I will deal with it in a more detailed post later. However, I decided to move my 100 question meme from LJ to here. I will try to keep this account up to date.
1. One of your scars: How did you get it?
I don’t have scars. Just those weird colored bruises. My skin bruises too easily.
2. What is on the walls in your room?
A huge Reservoir Dogs poster and a semi huge Sympsons – Dali parody poster. aa and a drawing of Spongebob for me by my roommate.(no longer since I can’t find it…sorry)
3. What does your cell phone look like?
Sony Ericsson w330i me thinks. I wanna buy a Japanese mobile phone. Someday.
4. What music do you like to listen to?
Almost everything once. Having said that, I want to add that rock music rules my life, together with jazz and trip hop.
5. Do you know what time you were born?
between 3 and 5 am.
6. What do you want more than anything right now?
Go back to college. go to Japan
7. What do you miss?
um, my college life. seriously. nothing really…
8. What is your most prized possession?
I don’t like to attach myself sentimentally to objects anymore. Nothing good comes out of it.
9. What is your favourite smell?
Japanese Cherry Blossom
10. Do you get claustrophobic?
No. I love narrow spaces.
11. Do you get scared in the dark?
Yes. I am aware it’s not *cool* at my age, but my imagination scares the shit out of me.
13. What is your favourite cologne/perfume?
So far CK1 and TommyGirl.
14. What kind of hair do you like on the opposite/same sex?
As long as they look good I don’t really care. HOWEVER, I noticed that dark hair attracts my attention faster…
15. Where can you see yourself proposing at?
I don’t see myself proposing.
16. Coffee or energy drinks?
Flavoured ethanol
17. What is your favourite pizza topping?
I would like to add an s to topping. To me, pizza is full of vegetables, shrimp, chicken, pork, fish, tomato sauce, cheese and MOAR vegetables. oh and oregano. It’s an ADVENTURE.
18. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
nothing. I have this weird sensation in my stomach: I’m hungry yet I feel full. baclava!
19. Who is the last person you made mad?
I think my parents? my sister
20. Do you speak a different language?
aye, English, French, Italian. No longer a beginner in Japanese (w00t). I understand/read/sometimes write Spanish.
21. What was the first gift someone (of the opposite sex) ever gave you?
A sticker of Bruce Lee in kinder garden. I was playing a lot with the guys and one of them really thought I was into him. We were young and stupid.
28. Would you fall in love knowing that the person is leaving?
I’d try not to.
29. What is the best way to tell someone how much they mean to you?
I would like to say “straight in their face”, but I can do that ONLY after fighting, crying and making us feel crappy about it. Yes, that’s the only way to achieve this sort of thing to me.
30. Say a number from one to one hundred.
2
31. Blondes or brunettes?
Both can be so damn hawt…
32. What is the one number you call often?
My sister’s. So she can call me back. hehe
33. What annoys you most?
people not taking advantage of opportunities.
34. Have you been out of the country?
the US and Italy.
35. Your weaknesses?
I guess I have high standards. And a fucking huge ego. My friends and family.
36. Where were you born?
Where my parents live.
37. First job?
Ilegally working as a bartender at the tender age of 16.
38. Ever done a prank call?
well duh
39. What were you doing before you filled out this survey?
checking my email for the 1000th time today.
40. If you could get plastic surgery what would it be?
oh gawd, where should I start?
41. Why did you fill out this survey?
Hella bored.
42. What do you get complimented about most?
my reliability. being someone’s bitch pays off sometimes. only sometimes.
43. What would you do if alcohol was outlawed?
I would build a club and sell it there. ILEGALLY! oh the drama…or die
44. What do you want for your birthday?
a tall handsome Japanese boyfriend that doesn’t look like a toothpick.
45. How many kids do you want?
I hate kids, babies, toddlers, teenagers, you name it. Having said that, I think one boy would be ok.
46. Were you named after anyone?
Yes. a saint and my dad wtf
47. Do you wish on stars?
not really…
48. Which finger(s) is your favourite?
don’t have one…
49. When did you last cry?
a week ago?
50. Do you like your handwriting?
sometimes
51. What’s your favourite lunch meat?
I’m still feeling what I had last night, so no food for me anymore… a lot of cheese
52. Any bad habits?
I’ll get back to you on that…
53. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
um…Britney Spears…
54. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
It would be hella hard…
55. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
yeah but it was no biggie
56. Do looks matter?
I’m so shallow that it’s a definite yes, they do.
57. How do you release anger?
by arguing more
58. Where is your second home?
My parent’s house.
59. Do you trust others easily?
too easily to survive in this fucked up world.
60. What was your favourite toy as a child?
When I didn’t feel like studying, EVERYTHING was a toy in my hand…I would play with anything I could pick up, pencils, erasers, clothes, desks, chairs, mugs…imagination has no borders..
And, yes, when I was a child I was supposed to study a lot.
61. How many numbers are in your cell phone?
about 50.
63. Do you use sarcasm?
I have a proficiency diploma in sarcasm and an advanced one in sadism awarded by the university of we don’t like stupid people.
64. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
I was NEAR a mosh pit. In the other room to be more precise.
65. What do you look for in a girl/boy?
haha the height. they need to be taller than me, which is kinda hard…damn >_<. oh yeah and the shallow thing named goodlooks.
66. What are your nicknames?
vampire, El, Elle, bloodsucker, little dark cloud wtf
68. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
used to wtf
70. What’s your favourite ice cream flavour?
all of them wtf
72. What are your favourite colours?
black (yeah I know it’s not a colour), purple, blue, red, green. FUCKSIA WTF
73. How many wisdom teeth do you have?
all of them
75. Do you want everyone to answer these questions?
who’s everyone?
76. What are you listening to right now?
gazette zakurogata…
77. Last thing you ate?
fucking Greek salad. oh the regrets… ice cream
78. Last person you talked to on the phone?
my dad about leaving a party. my sister this morning
79. The first thing you notice in the opposite/same sex?
height. nuff said
82. Favourite drink?
semi dry white wine.
84. What is your favourite sport?
football. real people know which sport I’m talking about wtf
85. Hair colour?
dark brown. hopefully soon to be purple
86. Eye colour?
dark brown.
87. Do you wear glasses?
yeah. I need to get my new pair of lens for school. only when no one sees me. contacts are my god wtf
88. Siblings?
big sister.
89. Favourite month?
January.
90. You like sushi?
yeah…
91. Last thing you watched?
a yahoo live interview of alice nine. it was fun.
93. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
damn straight
94. Summer or Winter?
winter spring and autumn.
95. Kisses or hugs?
oh the kissies….
96. Relationships or one night stands?
I don’t mind either.
97. Who is the most likely to answer these questions?
wtf
98. Who is the least likely to answer these questions?
wtf
99. What books are you reading?
none at the moment.
100. Where do you work?
Life. it takes up all my time.
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